Ridzky Ilham

I used to think that we’re invincible.

We’re always together just like a pair of shoes.

Talking to each other everyday and every night.

We hug, we kiss, we love each other.

Now, i am so far away.

We live in different continent.

You barely recognize me as a friend anymore.

When the truth is, you used to be my everything.

How stupid I am.

You never said “I just want to be with you”.

Maybe you did, but you lied to me.

What’s happening right now is the proof that you lied.

I don’t know what you’re feeling inside there.

But I am certain that things is not going to work out anymore.

The only thing I can do is wish you the best of luck.

It’s been few years since we broke up, but deep inside my heart I still love you and I don’t know how long this will last.

I would like you to know that, but it’s hard because you’re so cold.

I would like to open my heart for someone else, but I can’t get you out of my fucking mind.

I guess this is goodbye.

I don’t want to say goodbye, but let me tell you one thing.

I am ready whenever you want to say hello to me :)

There are times when you say something and you did not realized that it cut both ways. I do that sometimes too, but I think it’s a good time to start to think before you talk. After all, it is better to prevent than to regret, right?

I saw someone I know tweeted this:

LADIES: your ex is an EXample of what you should stay away from, not be involved with, or thinking about going back too

She retweeted someone else’s tweet, well I don’t blame her for that, not her mistake, but I believe that there is something’s wrong with that tweet.

I do not think that it is appropriate to write that, it’s like indirectly you are calling your Ex-Boyfriend an asshole. Well, that happens, but it does not mean you can say that. After all, you are their Ex-Girlfriend. Imagine if your ex said that, wouldn’t you be pissed? I actually would. 

I also hate how people always think that girls is always a ‘victim’ of a broken relationship. Dude, just because she is a girl, it does not mean she is the ‘victim’, mostly, yes she is. But one thing I would like to mention, STOP STEREOTYPING!

Options, we have a lot of options in our life. I don’t believe in the phrase “I have no options left” because there is always an option in our life. But sometimes, option is so simple and you still can’t get it right. I will provide you an example.

This thing has been bothering me for quite some time, I am sorry but I CANNOT tell you what this is about because I am afraid that someone that is involved with this might read my blog and find out about this, and I DO NOT WANT HER TO KNOW ABOUT THIS! 

We all know that if we want to make a choice, we have to choose carefully and suck up the consequences, right? And just to make it short, I have 2 OPTION, Take it or Leave it. These are the consequences:

Take It

If I choose to take it, I might as well get what I want and this thing will not bother me anymore.That’s the upside. The downside? I might break our relationship as friends (even tho I know that we don’t talk that much).

Leave It

Well, if I choose to leave it, it will not be awkward between her and I, and I will not break our friendship (at least for a moment of time). But, this thing will keep bothering me until certain amount of time which I don’t know when this will end. Just to let you know, it’s been a couple of years and it may take another couple of years to end this.

So, which one do you think I should choose?

FUCK! Kesel banget gue! Kenapa? Gua kesel ama temen sekolah gue wey! Mau tau kenapa?

Jadi gini, 4 orang (sebut A,F,R sama S) itu punya ide buat nipu temen temennya termasuk gue. Modusnya gini: “Eh ada kucing” “Dimana?” *pas lengah, dipeluk terus dilempar ke semak semak*. Gue dilempar 2 KALI. Eits! Belom selesai! Ga cuman gue yang dilempar, ada banyak! Hal ini berlanjut ampe 3 hari.

Sampe tadi, hal ini kecium ama guru. Lebih tepatnya, ada yang ngelapor ke guru kalo dia diempar (cumi amat yak, gue 2 kali dilempar aja sekut sekut aja), yaudah pas udah dilaporin, ketauan lah 4 orang ini. Nah! 4 orang ini nyebut semua siapa yang dilempar ampe yang nonton aja disebut dibilangnya “Ikut-ikutan” ! WHAT THE FUCK MAN! Nah, jadi total ada 15 orang (termasuk gue), 15 orang ini harus ganti rugi (semak semaknya rusak) terus harus jadi Community Service selama 1 minggu!

WHAT THE FUCK! GUE DILEMPAR! KENAPA GUE HARUS KENA JUGA? SALAH GUE APA? GA NGELAPOR? YA IYALAH GA NGELAPOR, ORANG CUMAN PRACTICAL JOKE, LAGIAN JUGA KALO GUE NGELAPOR, UNTUNGNYA APA JUGA? TOH CUMAN BERCANDAAN, CUMI AMAT CUMAN BERCANDAAN DILAPORIN! ITU LAGI 4 ORANG PAKE NYALAHIN SEMUA ORANG, AMPE YANG NONTON AJA DISALAHIN, WHAT THE HELL? 

GUE PERJELAS! GUE GA AKAN GANTI RUGI DAN GUE GA AKAN JADI COMMUNITY SERVICE! MAU DI SKORSING KEK GUE, GA PEDULI! GUE PUNYA BUKTI KALO 4 ORANG ITU YANG MULAI !

FUCK!

Puasa puasa puasa. Semua Muslim pasti puasa (kecuali yang dapet) soalnya kan wajib, namanya juga bulan Ramadhan zz. Karena sekarang bulan Ramadhan dan ini adalah bulan yang paling suci (menurut agama gue which is Islam), gue atas nama Ridzky Ilham pengen minta maaf sama lo semua kalo udah bikin salah (mau itu ngecengin lo ampe kelewatan, berantem, jitaklah, intinya sengaja atau ga disengaja) ya. One little fact, you guys mean the world to me :)

Ridzky Ilham

I’m bored, should I post my short stories here? I don’t think it’s a good idea, is it? Well I’ll have a think about it :)